Bumming Water

I'm so proud of myself, I made it all the way past the pond and back! On my bike....it was awesome. I had to bum some water off of Julie and her bro Peter, who i think is hot but shhh!, cause i was dying! Like really. It was terrible. I forgot Julie had a brother though...otherwise i would have thought twice about showing up all sweaty and nasty at their house. Ick. Oh well. I had an awesome ride. Being pasted by a firetruck is hecka scary! Lates.

Overwhelmed

i'm so overwhelmed today, I don't know...I want to talk to someone about it but I can't really express what it is out loud. I call one of my friends but he was gone and so whatever. I hate this. Oh, Danny's in the hospital and it doesn't look good. I can't take another person dying. Everyone's breaking down and I don't want to because I feel like it's not my turn. I know it doesn't even make sense but it's just how i feel. I want to go to bed and wake up when life is good.With how this is going I'd never wake up. Ugh. Oh well. I'll feel better in the morning it's just the nights that get to me.

Marines and Letters

ok so i'm going to make this quick because i want to go for a run really really badly and the suns going to go down. so i've been looking at careers in the military more and more and i really want to do this. I'm only 15 though so i have 3 more years to make the decision. It's like every time i look up information on careers or basic training and stuff and i just get pumped. It sound like it would be awesome. I really want to do it like if someone said you can join the marines but you have to do it now i'd be like ok lets go. I would need time to get my body ready but it's like i'm ready to go mentally. Maybe i'm not going to do that but ok. Oh well we'll see what happens in the future. Oh and friday Scott brought me a box of letters and even though i said i didn't want them he gave them to me and it was about thirty letters that darnell wrote to me when i was mad at him. I think it's been the hardest part like even the first week was easier then reading all of these letters. Well anyways I'm going to go because i want to be able to work out before the sun goes down.

Memorial Day